Thanks everyone for the responses. I've had a horrible couple of days, but the logical side of my brain is finally taking over control again.
Sent a message to a solicitor that was recommended by a friend of my mum's last night and they rang me at quarter to nine this morning. They clearly knew what they were talking about and really set me at ease, they said I should be able to get legal aid and they can represent me so I think I'm in good hands.
Still absolutely bricking it, and this has come at about the worst possible time. My mum (who I still live with because I've never been financially able to move out) is about to lose her job due to medical reasons around the same time as my court date, and my aunt (her sister) is nearing the end of her life because of stage four cancer - just found out today that she's also had a stroke...the doctors say she may only have a few weeks left.
I don't believe in karma or fate or anything like that, but I can't help but feel that everything in the universe that can go wrong is choosing the absolute worst time to do it.
My mental health is in the gutter. Not felt this bad for this long since I was arrested. I won't discuss the details of the case until I've got a verdict, but honestly at this point I just want this over. The path of least resistance seems to be to not fight it and hope the sentence (less the 30% discount) is something I can manage.
Thank you, everyone.