By kraken - 3 Apr 25 5:45 AM
i had the knock about a month ago.
for sexual comms with a child(13) also seems it was a police operation(not that it really matters)
ive been struggling a lot with not having real contact with my son (bail conditions of not unsupervised with under 16 and not to stay overnight in a property where under 16 are sleeping)
my wife(ex) wants a divorce and to change our sons surname for if(more likly when) it gets into any media to try help protect him, ive agreed to this(its just a name but still hard)
the waiting to know what is going to happen is the hardest, some family and a friend know, im lucky to still be in work for now but thats obvisoly going to change eventualy and no idea what to do then(just save for now is the plan)
ive never been so emotional in my life and everything jus seems to go so slow.
i have printed off all the modules from stopitnow and refered to stopso for theopy, the aurara project has now finished and no longer running(only one to get a responce from so far)
im so scared of what is to come in relation to my son, what kind of relationship am i going to have with him once my conviction starts, how are social going to e with the whole situation, its hard as soo many outcomes from everything.
anyway just a quick first post to say hi and a little introduction
kraken
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By kraken - 4 Apr 25 5:01 PM
Thanks ED
Im still waiting for stopso to get back to me, ill call them monday if nothing by then.
My emotions are mainly crying, im upset with myself and scared for the future.
Not for the conviction as that is what has to happen and will, more for my son and my to be ex wife(i dont know how to get over that either just yet)
At times it still feels like a dream, whilst im working and busy my focus is on that, but as soon as i have down time, even while driving my mind wanders into all the what ifs that are coming, i know this will be what most go through and im not the first, all this stems from 'been a mans man' trying to just get through stuff it will be okay in the end, and now ive lost my family as i knew it, the thing i was scared to talk to my wife about for the same outcome,
Anyway thank you for your kind words, i wouldnt want anything sugar coated i prefer direct.
Thanks again
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