Hi Dharma, I read your post the other day and can fully understand what you are going through. What I can say is you will go through a lot of lows before you can start to build your life again. I was in this situation when I had the knock. Since my post I have had my plea hearing, which I pleaded guilty, and recently had my sentencing hearing which was held at magistrates court not crown as prosecution and my solicitor agreed it was best to keep it with the magistrate. To give you some hope, I received 18 months community order of 180 hours, 25 RAR(rehabilitation sessions) and 5 years on SOR and SHPO, which mainly related to internet restrictions and monitoring software. There is a condition preventing me from entering or remaining in a household where someone under 18 is present. The visor and social services can agree to allow access but that’s for the future. The whole process from the knock to sentencing fo me took 15 months. I am now working hard with the support of some of my family and close friends to work through the next period and of course find a new job. I want to wish you luck, be honest with yourself and those you trust. Take care and don’t despair or give up. You will get through this.