By james1979 - 19 Apr 22 10:49 AM
Hi all.
I would post this in new the forums come say HI bit but the post reply buttons are missing or I cant add a topic, so appologies this is in the wrong area.
I have been visiting the forum unregistered for about 2 years, reading all your storys and other bits to build my confidence of posting for the first time. So to begin with, James is not my real name but to protect me thats what I will use to post on this forum, I share that to be completely honest and open as much as I can without revealing my true identity of course. I was convicted of indecent images (downloading) and given a 15 month sentence suspended for 2 years and 150 hours community service and required to sign on sor for 10 years and given a SHPO for 10 years... the shpo was hotley debated in court in my case as they were not 100% sure if I needed one but in the end the judge ruled she had no choice with cases like this as duty of care to the public etc, that was almost 2 years ago now, the time with probation ends on July the 5th. leading up to the conviction I had numerous undiagnoised mental health problems and a drinkning issue and I was abusing drugs and self harming and I started to get addicted to online pornoragraphy, I apprentally amassed 650,0000 normal videos of legal porn and something like 10 illegal accroding the police officer who charged me but again please dont think I am excusing it because I am not, there is non, before the police knocked on the door i was planning to kill myself and i mean really planning, I bought plastic sheet and a rope and found a place where hopefully only a police officer would find me, but I was planning on calling 999 and telling them where i was and then doing the deed so in a way it was a good thing they knocked as it threw me into mental health services. I was eventually thrown into a court and advised by my barrister to plead guilty, and with my various issues I did and had to wait months to get sentatenced due to the pandemic and well eventually I got the sentance I have shared. just to pause here for a bit I dont want anyone to think I am using my mental health problems as an excuse i know I keep mentioning this but its important you understand I am not trying to excuse anything.
probation for the most part are ok, I see them once a month and in the begining it did help but these last 2-3 months its not any help at all and it 2-3 minutes tops and thanks see you next month, I feel something is missing from probation, I just cant put my finger on it.. but I digress. unpaid work was a mess and they didnt communicate properly and acted like they were a small business, this was confirmed by my probabtion officer who said thats excatly how they operate but it would be changing as unpaid work would be coming back into probation, the problem i had wa sa mouthy young lad on site started in on me and then started talking to others and started asking questions about what my conviction was, I was mentally unwell still and well it was tempting to react I didnt, unpiad work people let the situation get of hand and eventually these 3 young lads was at one end of the site and I was on my own getting on with things and was appraoched by the surpervisor and I was asked to leave site as they are asking questions and putting things together... anyhow that happened and they refused to put me in a charity shop folding clothes as I was "unsuitable" even though my probabtion officer argused against this..... so yeah unpaid work was eventually completed at home due to the pandemic so was a massive mess and glad I got it done.
I am still struggling sometimes mentally, I have been in and out of mental health programs and today I have anxiety, depression, diabetties, high blood preasure and extreme fear of being around groups of people as I think i am going to be attacked, I am attending a centre soon which I think will help but just honestly guys I do struggle, yesterday was especially bad as I watched a youtube thing where this guy was being celebrated and applauded for beating a suposed rapist to death in the street with a baseball bat and he said he would do the same to all sex offenders, which obvously triggered my fear but thats were I am, again just want to be honest as its been a long journey to get mentally right again and I do want you all to know I was out of my mind and lost it, as I would finish my rubbish job and just aimsley wander around till 9pm in the evening and then go home and self harm and drink and do drugs and sometimes not all the time surf for porn, should point out it took the police 2 years to bring it to court and I was released on investigation during those 2 years and in that time I started to deal with my mental health which turns out helped in court.
sorry for the long intro but now I want anyone who has been through this what did you do for work? I would be really intersted to hear from those who entire career was tech based or in IT, what job did you take and how? IT agencys refuse to consider anyone with crimanal record so have no clue how to continue in that feild even though my PPU says they have loads of people who have!!!! I am lost and confused as to how they did this. I am just starting on when to disclose work and that seems straight forward, just curious how and what type of jobs you got, as I am stuck as my entire working history is in tech, also note i have no restrictions on the type of work I can take and what i mean by that I can use anything tech based if its work related.
Housing, I got turned down flat as I was recently found guilty of a crime and asked to reapply in 2 years, how did you all manage to get on housing registers?
thats everything and all the best to everyone and keep moving forward as thats all we can do I guess.
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By Dean91 - 27 May 22 11:23 AM
Hi Mr W
So I have just been lucky to find places that didn't ask for disclosure. My PPU officer in fairness, didn't make a threat to disclose as they stated they would only consider this option if they believed I was at risk or if they considered there was a risk to myself in that role. Which to me is abit of a fair enough. All of the roles I held in fairness never interacted with the public
As many have said, it depends on the force and the officer entirely and it can be quite hit and miss who you get etc.
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