Firstly, welcome to the forum. This is a great place to vent, and gain other peoples perspectives on issues.
I am unusual, and fell in a trap so I have two sentecnes, and they are concurrent. I was originally sentence in 2020 for idecent images, and during a PPU visit, they pressurised me into giving consent to search my IT equipment, at the time, I didn't have a SHPO, due to my low numbers, my barrister argued in court the risks actually outweigh any benefits as well in my case. I was resentenced in 2021 for the same offence, as the PPU found more images on a laptop this time I had a 22month sentence suspended for 2 years, and a 10 year SHPO. Although my SHPO was quite debated in court, and the judge agreed to some of the conditions being vague(One of my conditions actualyl does say I cannot install CCCleaner and I don't have any conditions about supervision).
I have now officially finished Horizon- -Final appointment is this week!!! , I am pretty much now starting to be at the end of my sentence and starting to do the final things with probation now, which to me is a relief.
I have managed to secure IT jobs, and if I am honest, they never bothered to ask. One thing I would say though, is keep your PPU officer in the loop. One of the jobs I had, was purely office based, and the office was an open space so everyone could see my screen - this helped with my officer and gave them the reassurance they needed.
My visits in fairness, have started to become less frequent. I have a good working relationship with my PPU officer, its the 2nd officer they come with I tend to have issues with as he can be over-zealous at times.
I too have depression and anxiety, I have other medical conditions which I won't post. But one thing I would say is, Probation are there to support you, and they do have some great levels of support, just, if you feel your missing something in the appointments then raise this with them. Probation itself even since I started has gone through massive changes, mainly that the private part has been bought back to HMPPS.
You have to be able to manage your own risk, and build for the future. Look towards the future and focus on building a new me. It's easy to look back at what we did, but actually moving foward means, accepting what we did was wrong, the responsibillity for our actions(Not like the PM who continually breaks laws or misleads Parliament) and if I am honest, you will start to move on when things seem to move along in your sentence etc.
Once your sentence is over, you have done your time, and rehabilitated