Thank you for your words which; in my opinion, will have empathy from most readers due to their own personal experiences.
At my age my emotional development gained its understanding from a social environment that believed males should just "shrug" traumatic events off and females were "disbelieved". The male held the responsibility for nearly all family matters without questions.
This development was further hindered by the lack of mental support through my years in the military and seeing what humans can do to each other. Though comrades appeared to have the personal psychiatric maturity to compute these events. It was only years later and post my offence, I was able to understand that I had not and hide behind a "charade of happiness"
I suppose one point I am "thinking out loud about", is my concerns on how modern society, in its drive to demonstrate it has matured from its earlier beliefs: I mentioned above, is attempting to distance itself from accepting that they did hold them. To me, this lack of acceptance of the past has the consequence of also not accepting that; those previously held and in some still held beliefs, impact on some individuals to an extent that possibly contributed to their committing offences.
I would also suggest that "nature" itself is not perfect and unfortunately some suffer from neurological impairment from birth or later in life from injury. Again the lack of compassion and understanding of these factors from what we call "normal" humans can and does alienate individuals from society.
I am not saying all offenders have mental issues but that the insufficient or lack of "development" of someone of any age has consequences.
I think most of the readers of my other articles will understand my offence was based on prostitution. I acknowledge my participation was immoral and possibly selfish, but it was also recognised there was no violence, predatory or grooming actions and I will leave it at that. What I do now know is that my use of these ladies did not derive from a sexual desire. Please do not think of me as being naive and so not fully understanding the falseness of this type of "relationship", but more one of my wanting to be able to be in the presence of a female in a non-chastising, non-expectant and so committal free and so unpressurised environment. I am not saying sex did not happen as at times it did. However do not dismiss the power of communication between two "injured" personalities: though I never considered mine to be the greater. I have and always will hold the majority of these ladies with great respect but I also appreciate that I was hiding away from the realities of human behaviour.
When reading this do not think of my being in denial of the impact of my offence but one of wishing to take the opportunity to open up about my own mental concerns and show that they are not always visible to others. This is also one of my reasons for starting this topic on two unfortunate ladies, seen differently by the public, but both with one commonality, mental issues.
I will leave you with this link I recently found.https://www.bbc.co.uk/bbcthree/article/a534c571-035c-4423-9dd9-33c8d425f5f3
Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope is for tomorrow else what is left if you remove a mans hope.