Hi everyone

I do come on the forum as I know you all understand and I am so thankful to all of you.
I know I have done wrong and I am regretting every minute of every day in life. I can't change the past and I so wish I could turn the clocks back.i really do.
I have explained to my father what happened and he still comes back to me asking why the fuck did I offend. I am sick to the teeth to explain. The damage is done and I have to live with the shame and guilt of what I've done.
How do you all cope with the pressure of being questioned all the time?
I am sorry if I sound angry
Any advise will be welcomed
Thanks
C